In reality, there is no Fiction

Yes, sometimes life will hurt. But that doesn't mean the world is coming to an end. It just means youre going through rough times right now. And Yea, sure. Maybe the best thing to do does hurt. But what else can you do besides protect yourself. the thing is, you can't live in a glass ball your whole life. You have to be open up to pain and anything else that comes your way. The world isn't a box of chocolates. Sure you can have happy moments. But that doesn't really mean that the world is a happy place. It just means you got a chocolate out of the world's tricky little custom wrapped chocolate box. But that does not mean the moment will last. For there will always be something in the way. No matter what it is, a perfect plan can fail by having just one little glitch.

Ignored

What did I do
For you to ignore me
I sat here and waited
For you to stop by
But you didn't, and know you wonder why
I sit here all sad
Wile you talk and laugh
You treat me like a stranger
And I don't like that


When you finally showed up
I had nothing to say
But "Maybe some other day"
I still don't talk
And you re still wondering why
That's why I sit here and cry


I don't know what I did
For you to not talk
It's like I have an important key
But nothing to unlock


So please, baby
Tell me what i did wrong
Tell me what I did
That didn't have you singing a happy song

So Impatient

As I sit here and wait
Blizzards roll and tumble outside
Calmly waiting for you
Darkness sits upon the cold air
Eagerly, still waiting for you
Fog covers the ground
Glistening snow falls upon my porch
Hesitantly waiting for you
I am now getting impatient
Just wondering why you’re not here
Knowing, or hoping you’ll show up
Listening to the wind
My mind just chilling looking out of the window
Numbing thoughts of cold chilling my body
Outside, the world is frozen
Pushing snow with all of Mother Nature’s might
Quietly falling to the ground
Running outside, I call your name
Suddenly, you appear out of nowhere
Turning, I see your face
Undertaken in snow
Vines frosted in the snow
Why, I didn’t have to wait for you anymore
Xanthic is now the color of the grass
Yet it is not ugly this December
Zany times we had in the snow

Lyrics That Are Stuck In My Head

Try'na decide Try'na decideIf I really wanna go out tonight I never used to go out without yaNot sure I remember how taGonna be late Gonna be lateBut, all my girls don't have to wait 'causeI dont know if I like my outfitI tried everything in my closetNothin feels right when Im not with youSick of this dress and these Jimmy ChoosTakin them off 'cause I feel a foolTry'na dress up when Im missin youImma step out of this lingerieCurl up in a ball with something HanesIn bed I layWith nothing but your T-shirt onWith nothing but your T-shirt onHeyGotta be strong gotta be strong but Im Really hurtin now that you're goneI thought maybe I'd do some shoppingBut I couldnt get past the door andNow I dont know, now I dont know If ImEver really gonna let you goAnd I couldnt even leave my apartmentI'm stripped down, torn up about itNothin feels right when Im not with youSick of this dress and these Jimmy ChoosTakin them off 'cause I feel a foolTry'na dress up when Im missin' youIm'a step out of this lingerieCurl up in a ball with something HanesIn bed I layNow I dont know, now I dont know If ImEver really gonna let you goAnd I couldnt even leave my apartment I'm stripped down, torn up about itNothing feels right when Im not with youSick of this dress and these Jimmy ChoosTaking them off 'cause I feel a foolTry'na dress up when Im missin youImma step out of this lingerieCurl up in a ball with something HanesIn bed I lay

Torture Hall

You walk into the hall
But you cannot see
For you have been blind-folded and drugged
They bring you into a room
Where they leave you

You awake to see many medieval contraptions
But not knowing what they are, you panic and think of the worst
For you are brought to a wooden slat on the ground
They lay you on the board and strap you down
And thrust a metal bucket onto your stomach

You see them stick a rat under the bucket
They start to warm it up
You can feel the mouse’s grimy claws grab a hold of your skin
And you can hear its squealing
That’s when you feel the first bite

You lie there with agonizing pain
As the rat starts to dig deeper into your gut
You feel the ripping of the claws and the beating of your heart starts to die
The rat finally digs its way into your stomach
You lie there dead cold

As the rat travels up your throat
And manages to find its way out of your body
You lie there lifeless and cold
The rat stumbles on the floor
And walks through
Torture Hall

Sitting Alone (Terza Rima)

Sitting alone in my room
Sad and not knowing what to do
It feels like the flowers of spring will never bloom


My head feels hot and I feel blue
My face is warm and red
For I am unable to understand you


It feels like my heart has been ripped out and has bled
I sit here and think of all that we can be
And still I sit here and lay on my bed


For your love I cannot see
Because without you I am lost
Because without you I cannot see me


I dont know what to do for I feel tossed
For I feel like our lines have crossed

Trauntly Waiting. (Made up Words)

As i sat under the blumbling cork tree, I thought about all of the duppy things
that are going on in my life. I think about the stress that I have overcome. And I sit back and plintly wait. I dont know what Im waiting for. But i know its extrounding! What am I waiting for? Maybe the world will never know. I willidly speak and suntly sit. For I am waiting for a new day. Trauntly waiting.

What if I said

What if I said
I CAN CHANGE
The bold words coming out of my mouth

What if I said
I CAN GET THIS RIGHT
The strong thoughts written down

What if I said
I AM STRONGER THAN THIS
Would you believe me, I wouldn't

What if I said
I CAN NO LONGER CRY
Because that's not true, I cried last night

Fall Apart

Why am I crying
I HAVE to be strong
As tears roll down my face
I cannot help but hold on
Why do I sit and wait
For you to tell me it will be okay
When I know damn right it will be
Why can't I confront you
About what I feel
Is it that Im afraid to lose you
Im pretty sure that's it
I cannot afford to
And you knew it all along
But I still hang on
For the sake of my heart
For if I was to lose you,
I'd fall apart

Just a Thought (Sonnet)

Do you expect it from me
What am I to you, Nothing
Why can’t you see
I think that you’re bluffing

Did you really care
You didn’t even bother to tell me i was wrong
You just gave me an uncaring stare
You made me feel like I didn’t even belong

Am I worth it
You make me think not
All you make me want to do is weep and sit
You don’t even care that this isn’t just a thought

...And you don't even care

You walk away and don’t say a word.
Except for I have to go.
How do you think that makes me feel?
I just sit there and wait for you.
Yeah, maybe I felt like crying
But it was because of you.
You left me to sit and weep in my pain.
Without even caring one bit.
I’m supportive of you,
Right or Wrong.
I would expect the same from you.
But instead you ask
“Why would you do that?”
And side with someone else.
Thanks so much for not even caring
Don’t expect support from me next time.

If i could..

If i could i would
take back time, over again
instead i sit here

Happy Eyes (haiku)

My eyes are happy
filled with love and amazement
I love you so much

I Cannot Hold On (haiku)

My dark, sad eyes are drenched
with tears falling down like rain
I cannot hold on

You need to see

Why must I wait
for you to come through
you sit there and think
do i mean anything to you?
i try so hard
to keep us going
but the pain and the anger,
it just keeps growing
why cant you see
that I'm trying my best
and you just don't know
that my heart is breaking
pushing out my chest
why do you do this,
make me cry
sometimes i sit here and think
maybe i do wanna die
GOD
sometimes you're clueless
you cant even see
that I'm not giving up
on you and me

why don't you care?
is it that you wanna give up?
well, I'm not going to
you're my one and only love

So what

so what if I'm mad
i don't even think you'd care
you'd try and explain
and then shoot me a glare

so what if i cry
maybe i wanna express my feelings
it's not up to you
to tell me its a phase with no meaning

who cares if i shout
i wanna let the world know
i cant help what i feel
just let my arm go

why do you care so much
what?
you think this poem is about you
fights don't take one
it takes two

Letter to the past

as blank as this paper
was your face
when i told you
we should go our separate ways
it didn't just hurt you
it deeply hurt me
you said you would be there
but instead
you ran and fled

to this day,
i don't even care
i found somebody better
for when you left
i started this letter

Unwanted

fellings plunge through my body
cold and bitter
they swim through myveins
and leave an icy layer of broken heart
these feelings,
capture your soul
and make you feel rejected
they break your heart instead of
calm your nerves
they want to push you down
these feelings are not your friends
they are the chilled aftermath of a
snowstorm
these feelings are
UNWANTED

STOP! writing

what am i doing
this is my fourth poem
for i have spent 15 minutes
letting my mind roam
why cant i stop?
i just have to write
there is something wrong with my brain
because all that i can write about is pain
i need to spot before i get out of control
my mind quivers
its taking a big toll
here lies my hand
fidgeting in sight
its shaking so much
i can barely write
why cant i think,
think for myself
its like a poets in my mind
and were intertwined I'm going to stop writing
this is bad for my health
i shall write no more today
before i write my twelfth

Thats when you know...

A silence fills the air
Tears fall to the ground
Feeling lost as you sit and think
It rewinds in your mind more than a million times
You slowly let your head down
Not knowing what to do
You sit and think really hard
And you know, that you still love him
You try to push out the words
But re-runs of the fight keep playing in your head
Not knowing what to think
You calmly reach your hand and grab his
And that’s when you know,
You DO love him

Born to Fly: Vladmir Kush

As if a Butterfly
Soaring Alone in the sky
With nothing but a dim light on his side
Not knowing where to go
But trusting his instincts on what to do
Traveling along
In the cold evening air
The spary of the ocean hitting it
The butterfly takes a hard journey
Into the unknown
Coming out successful
In a new world
Unknown
Link to Picture: http://www.vladimirkush.com/flash/

Descent to the Mediterranean: Vladmir Kush

He looks as if he's invisible
But maybe it's just that people look through him
With no personality to bring to people,
He is as clear as what people make him out to be
On the bridge to nothingness, he seems lost
For it's as if he look invisible
But I think that just maybe
It is because people are looking
right
through him

Just a dream...

The cold feet swept the floor.

As if they were sweeping up tears.

My heart gave a loud boom.

As if I couldn't breathe.

That tone was familiar.

Like the beautiful shining stars.

I looked out at the stars.

Noticing they were shining on the tiled floor.

As I sat there, I heard a sound that was so familiar.

It was the rain, dropping down like a million tears.

It was so astonishing and beautiful, that I could hardly breathe.

With the raindrops making a big boom.

As i sat and listened to the boom,

I noticed that even with the rain, the sky still looked beautiful, just like the stars.

It was still very hard to breathe.

I stepped out on the cold, hard floor.

I heard the rain hit the windows, as if they were to tear.

But it all sounded great, just like the stars, familiar.

Why did this all seem so familiar?

The rain never made this loud of a boom.

The rains gained momentum, as the rain looked like swollen tears.

And almost out of sight, were the stars.

I started to jolt across the floor.

It was getting harder and harder to breathe.

Why was it so hard to breathe?

Why was everything so familiar?

My feet were still hitting the floor.

But the rain roared and my feet made a huge thud and then a boom.

But oh how beautiful the stars.

The rain made its tears, as I made mine.

They rolled down my face, the tears.

But now, I was able to breathe.

I couldn't see the stars.

But they were still oh so familiar.

The rain stopped the big boom.

And in the sky, there were no more tears.

Little Girl

Cry
yourself to sleep
For no one but you will
Weep
for hours tonight
because you are a broken child
Sit
and have no might
they say it's all your fault they got in a fight
Run
as fast as you can

Tonight this girl went to the Promise Land

Red & Black

Red & Black

On the wall

Today I let myself just fall

The pain i felt from yesterday

Just might never go away

As tears roll down my broken face

I cry myself back to sleep

But these eyes I will never open again

for the colors

Red & Black

are on my wall

Time will pass me by

Feeling lost and alone I sit back and wait...
As I stare at the clock I feel nervous...
As if time will pass me by...
I sit blankly and watch as the world moves...
But I, sit here alone, unable to move...
Here I sit, and gently wait...
As time will pass me by...
Unable to move...
As I gently wait.

Writing

What exactly do you do with a poem
Right, you write. But what about
Inking the smooth words on the lines
Trying to find something that fits and rhymes
Interesting facts on a tale of old time
Never understanding or knowing what to say
Goodness sake, I wrote a poem today

Today Is...

Today is a bowl of sunshine
Today is a sparkling diamond
Today is a great time at the beach
Today is a litter of kittens being born
Today is getting an A in math
Today is a penny well earned
Today is the sunshine on your face
Today is winning your first game
Today is a beautiful sunrise
And today is the day the light shines on you

Life is a River

A river flows through the world
It grows big and gets deeper and learns to run purely on its own
As it moves on
It tumbles its rocks
Washing away everything that piles in it
Carrying on through the world
It will never bring back what it has washed away

I wonder if I should go inside

The fall passes with slow curling winds
Pacing by blowing leaves on the ground
Trees blowing from side to side
I wonder if I should go inside

Winter passes with blizzards twirling in the sky
Snow on the ground, trees as dead as the night
Chilled and frustrated I lay in my bed
You move like the waves out of my mind

Spring passes with song birds in the sky
Whistling away at a perfect little rhyme
Flowers bloom and trees come back to life, Its getting dark outside
I wonder if I should go inside

Summer passes as the heat starts to rise
I drink my tea with the lemonade on the side
The stars shine bright and it’s a beautiful night
You move like the waves out of my mind

One year passes and it’s fall again
Pine needles fall on the yellow grass
Hours have passed, it got dark fast
I wonder if I should go inside

A few months later, winter hits
Swirling snow clashes to the ground
My heart was broken that cold December night
You’re gone like those waves, out of my mind
I finally got the courage to walk away and go inside