As i sat under the blumbling cork tree, I thought about all of the duppy things
that are going on in my life. I think about the stress that I have overcome. And I sit back and plintly wait. I dont know what Im waiting for. But i know its extrounding! What am I waiting for? Maybe the world will never know. I willidly speak and suntly sit. For I am waiting for a new day. Trauntly waiting.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
What if I said
What if I said
I CAN CHANGE
The bold words coming out of my mouth
What if I said
I CAN GET THIS RIGHT
The strong thoughts written down
What if I said
I AM STRONGER THAN THIS
Would you believe me, I wouldn't
What if I said
I CAN NO LONGER CRY
Because that's not true, I cried last night
I CAN CHANGE
The bold words coming out of my mouth
What if I said
I CAN GET THIS RIGHT
The strong thoughts written down
What if I said
I AM STRONGER THAN THIS
Would you believe me, I wouldn't
What if I said
I CAN NO LONGER CRY
Because that's not true, I cried last night
Monday, October 13, 2008
Fall Apart
Why am I crying
I HAVE to be strong
As tears roll down my face
I cannot help but hold on
Why do I sit and wait
For you to tell me it will be okay
When I know damn right it will be
Why can't I confront you
About what I feel
Is it that Im afraid to lose you
Im pretty sure that's it
I cannot afford to
And you knew it all along
But I still hang on
For the sake of my heart
For if I was to lose you,
I'd fall apart
I HAVE to be strong
As tears roll down my face
I cannot help but hold on
Why do I sit and wait
For you to tell me it will be okay
When I know damn right it will be
Why can't I confront you
About what I feel
Is it that Im afraid to lose you
Im pretty sure that's it
I cannot afford to
And you knew it all along
But I still hang on
For the sake of my heart
For if I was to lose you,
I'd fall apart
Friday, October 10, 2008
Just a Thought (Sonnet)
Do you expect it from me
What am I to you, Nothing
Why can’t you see
I think that you’re bluffing
Did you really care
You didn’t even bother to tell me i was wrong
You just gave me an uncaring stare
You made me feel like I didn’t even belong
Am I worth it
You make me think not
All you make me want to do is weep and sit
You don’t even care that this isn’t just a thought
What am I to you, Nothing
Why can’t you see
I think that you’re bluffing
Did you really care
You didn’t even bother to tell me i was wrong
You just gave me an uncaring stare
You made me feel like I didn’t even belong
Am I worth it
You make me think not
All you make me want to do is weep and sit
You don’t even care that this isn’t just a thought
...And you don't even care
You walk away and don’t say a word.
Except for I have to go.
How do you think that makes me feel?
I just sit there and wait for you.
Yeah, maybe I felt like crying
But it was because of you.
You left me to sit and weep in my pain.
Without even caring one bit.
I’m supportive of you,
Right or Wrong.
I would expect the same from you.
But instead you ask
“Why would you do that?”
And side with someone else.
Thanks so much for not even caring
Don’t expect support from me next time.
Except for I have to go.
How do you think that makes me feel?
I just sit there and wait for you.
Yeah, maybe I felt like crying
But it was because of you.
You left me to sit and weep in my pain.
Without even caring one bit.
I’m supportive of you,
Right or Wrong.
I would expect the same from you.
But instead you ask
“Why would you do that?”
And side with someone else.
Thanks so much for not even caring
Don’t expect support from me next time.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
I Cannot Hold On (haiku)
My dark, sad eyes are drenched
with tears falling down like rain
I cannot hold on
with tears falling down like rain
I cannot hold on
You need to see
Why must I wait
for you to come through
you sit there and think
do i mean anything to you?
i try so hard
to keep us going
but the pain and the anger,
it just keeps growing
why cant you see
that I'm trying my best
and you just don't know
that my heart is breaking
pushing out my chest
why do you do this,
make me cry
sometimes i sit here and think
maybe i do wanna die
GOD
sometimes you're clueless
you cant even see
that I'm not giving up
on you and me
why don't you care?
is it that you wanna give up?
well, I'm not going to
you're my one and only love
for you to come through
you sit there and think
do i mean anything to you?
i try so hard
to keep us going
but the pain and the anger,
it just keeps growing
why cant you see
that I'm trying my best
and you just don't know
that my heart is breaking
pushing out my chest
why do you do this,
make me cry
sometimes i sit here and think
maybe i do wanna die
GOD
sometimes you're clueless
you cant even see
that I'm not giving up
on you and me
why don't you care?
is it that you wanna give up?
well, I'm not going to
you're my one and only love
Friday, October 3, 2008
So what
so what if I'm mad
i don't even think you'd care
you'd try and explain
and then shoot me a glare
so what if i cry
maybe i wanna express my feelings
it's not up to you
to tell me its a phase with no meaning
who cares if i shout
i wanna let the world know
i cant help what i feel
just let my arm go
why do you care so much
what?
you think this poem is about you
fights don't take one
it takes two
i don't even think you'd care
you'd try and explain
and then shoot me a glare
so what if i cry
maybe i wanna express my feelings
it's not up to you
to tell me its a phase with no meaning
who cares if i shout
i wanna let the world know
i cant help what i feel
just let my arm go
why do you care so much
what?
you think this poem is about you
fights don't take one
it takes two
Letter to the past
as blank as this paper
was your face
when i told you
we should go our separate ways
it didn't just hurt you
it deeply hurt me
you said you would be there
but instead
you ran and fled
to this day,
i don't even care
i found somebody better
for when you left
i started this letter
was your face
when i told you
we should go our separate ways
it didn't just hurt you
it deeply hurt me
you said you would be there
but instead
you ran and fled
to this day,
i don't even care
i found somebody better
for when you left
i started this letter
Unwanted
fellings plunge through my body
cold and bitter
they swim through myveins
and leave an icy layer of broken heart
these feelings,
capture your soul
and make you feel rejected
they break your heart instead of
calm your nerves
they want to push you down
these feelings are not your friends
they are the chilled aftermath of a
snowstorm
these feelings are
UNWANTED
cold and bitter
they swim through myveins
and leave an icy layer of broken heart
these feelings,
capture your soul
and make you feel rejected
they break your heart instead of
calm your nerves
they want to push you down
these feelings are not your friends
they are the chilled aftermath of a
snowstorm
these feelings are
UNWANTED
STOP! writing
what am i doing
this is my fourth poem
for i have spent 15 minutes
letting my mind roam
why cant i stop?
i just have to write
there is something wrong with my brain
because all that i can write about is pain
i need to spot before i get out of control
my mind quivers
its taking a big toll
here lies my hand
fidgeting in sight
its shaking so much
i can barely write
why cant i think,
think for myself
its like a poets in my mind
and were intertwined I'm going to stop writing
this is bad for my health
i shall write no more today
before i write my twelfth
this is my fourth poem
for i have spent 15 minutes
letting my mind roam
why cant i stop?
i just have to write
there is something wrong with my brain
because all that i can write about is pain
i need to spot before i get out of control
my mind quivers
its taking a big toll
here lies my hand
fidgeting in sight
its shaking so much
i can barely write
why cant i think,
think for myself
its like a poets in my mind
and were intertwined I'm going to stop writing
this is bad for my health
i shall write no more today
before i write my twelfth
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Thats when you know...
A silence fills the air
Tears fall to the ground
Feeling lost as you sit and think
It rewinds in your mind more than a million times
You slowly let your head down
Not knowing what to do
You sit and think really hard
And you know, that you still love him
You try to push out the words
But re-runs of the fight keep playing in your head
Not knowing what to think
You calmly reach your hand and grab his
And that’s when you know,
You DO love him
Tears fall to the ground
Feeling lost as you sit and think
It rewinds in your mind more than a million times
You slowly let your head down
Not knowing what to do
You sit and think really hard
And you know, that you still love him
You try to push out the words
But re-runs of the fight keep playing in your head
Not knowing what to think
You calmly reach your hand and grab his
And that’s when you know,
You DO love him
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Born to Fly: Vladmir Kush
As if a Butterfly
Soaring Alone in the sky
With nothing but a dim light on his side
Not knowing where to go
But trusting his instincts on what to do
Traveling along
In the cold evening air
The spary of the ocean hitting it
The butterfly takes a hard journey
Into the unknown
Coming out successful
In a new world
Unknown
Link to Picture: http://www.vladimirkush.com/flash/
Soaring Alone in the sky
With nothing but a dim light on his side
Not knowing where to go
But trusting his instincts on what to do
Traveling along
In the cold evening air
The spary of the ocean hitting it
The butterfly takes a hard journey
Into the unknown
Coming out successful
In a new world
Unknown
Link to Picture: http://www.vladimirkush.com/flash/
Descent to the Mediterranean: Vladmir Kush
He looks as if he's invisible
But maybe it's just that people look through him
With no personality to bring to people,
He is as clear as what people make him out to be
On the bridge to nothingness, he seems lost
For it's as if he look invisible
But I think that just maybe
It is because people are looking
right
through him
But maybe it's just that people look through him
With no personality to bring to people,
He is as clear as what people make him out to be
On the bridge to nothingness, he seems lost
For it's as if he look invisible
But I think that just maybe
It is because people are looking
right
through him
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